Body image... blablablah

I'm always thinking over something, analysing things. When writing them down it's more than likely that I end up delivering a text which is mostly incoherent and highly unclear. This results from my thoughts being ten times faster than my fingers on the keyboard and me forgetting that no-one but I has the access inside my brain and so I skip some things that would be significant as to understand the big picture.
And know, after the prologue some illogically profound thoughts. ;)

I'm very conscious about my body. It's most likely due to the combination of my over-analysing personality and the fact that I've done all sorts of sports my entire life. I have two different sort of perspectives too evaluate my body from: how does it look like and how does it feel like. I can't remember if I have ever been perfectly content with my physical appearance - too short, not thin enough, always something wrong. What's more, I find it really hard to have a natural attitude towards my body when every place is flooding with women's magazines telling you how to loose weight with this-and-this-new-incredibly-awesome-diet and even-these-pretty-celebs-can-tell-ya-it-works. Then of course I love ballet and what are the ballerinas not but skinny and beautiful. With photographing I stumble into beauty ideals because of all the super-thin fashion models. And they're not even bothering me, I just think 'oh, what a gorgeous picture!' So there are some reason for my rather ambiguous view of my own body.
As to physical ability, it's another thing. A little. I am such a sport-a-holic but in the end I truly listen to my body and respect it. I admit my weaknesses and never really cross the line - if something is really hurting very, very, unbearably much I'll stop. But only when I'm at least half-dead. I try to keep a few days without training or at least I don't exhaust myself every day. And I eat because I know that without nutrition my body isn't capable of recovering and then I couldn't enjoy exercising and I'd do a lot of damage to my muscles and so forth.
So, what I suppose I'm saying or at least thinking, is that I feel I can change the way I look but not at the expense of my health and fitness.